The Moment

The moment.

The now. This is something that I always struggle with. Living in the now. I’m constantly thinking or “multitasking” as I like to refer to it. I’m thinking about what I still need to do, things I want to look up on the internet, the next meal we’re having, or really ANYTHING. I have a hard time compartmentalizing my thoughts. Even in moments where concentration would be a big help I’m still not focused. Some may call this ADD or flakey mom. I call it multi-tasking. However, as my husband points out if I don’t do anything great and just 5 things half assed maybe I should try to focus on one. Yes I just chalk this up to him being lazyJ Of course I could make dinner and not clean the kitchen at the same time or watch the kids or even plan out the next days events, but what fun would that be? Yes the dinner might taste better because I wouldn’t have forgotten to add the salt or it might even be cooked better because I remembered to add the onions at the right time or perhaps it might even be complete because I would remember to put the Naan in the oven (yes more than once). But alas I still try to do art projects with the kids while I empty the dishwasher and cook dinner. Yes it is a disease. I can’t even watch TV without being on the internet or doing something else.

However there are moments that I wish I could shut off my busy brain like tonight when my sweet little boy looked up to me after he had woken up and said snuggle me. Normally I would have my iphone on me and multitask by going on FB or Amazon while snuggling with him but since I was almost ready for bed myself I’d left my phone plugged in. Yes I was stuck in a dark room with a little boy who just wanted me to hold and snuggle him. Yet all I could think about was how quickly I could extricate myself from his bed so that I could finish downloading my book and get into bed. These are the times that I wish I could shut off my busy brain and just live in the now. The moment that all my son wanted was me and he was happy.

Here’s to the now and snuggling with those we love.