The moment.
The now. This is something that I always struggle with.
Living in the now. I’m constantly thinking or “multitasking” as I like to refer
to it. I’m thinking about what I still need to do, things I want to look up on
the internet, the next meal we’re having, or really ANYTHING. I have a hard
time compartmentalizing my thoughts. Even in moments where concentration would
be a big help I’m still not focused. Some may call this ADD or flakey mom. I
call it multi-tasking. However, as my husband points out if I don’t do anything
great and just 5 things half assed maybe I should try to focus on one. Yes I
just chalk this up to him being lazyJ
Of course I could make dinner and not clean the kitchen at the same time or
watch the kids or even plan out the next days events, but what fun would that
be? Yes the dinner might taste better because I wouldn’t have forgotten to add
the salt or it might even be cooked better because I remembered to add the
onions at the right time or perhaps it might even be complete because I would
remember to put the Naan in the oven (yes more than once). But alas I still try
to do art projects with the kids while I empty the dishwasher and cook dinner.
Yes it is a disease. I can’t even watch TV without being on the internet or
doing something else.
However there are moments that I wish I could shut off my
busy brain like tonight when my sweet little boy looked up to me after he had
woken up and said snuggle me. Normally I would have my iphone on me and
multitask by going on FB or Amazon while snuggling with him but since I was
almost ready for bed myself I’d left my phone plugged in. Yes I was stuck in a
dark room with a little boy who just wanted me to hold and snuggle him. Yet all
I could think about was how quickly I could extricate myself from his bed so
that I could finish downloading my book and get into bed. These are the times
that I wish I could shut off my busy brain and just live in the now. The moment
that all my son wanted was me and he was happy.
Here’s to the now and snuggling with those we love.
